When Did I Get To 50?

Yes, that is a picture of my car from Friday with snow on it. Snow. In mid April to boot.

This week has been hard. James has been in Florida, and I don't feel any closer to the proverbial finish line than when we started a year ago. I hate that, my parents hate that, and I'm sure James feels the worst of us all. I just don't have more optimistic things to say about the whole thing, so I'm just waiting for this to get sorted out so we can move on.

Seems like the only thing right now that makes me forget how crazy fucked up my situation is right now is my friend Michelle. I didn't expect to make a friend like her at my current company, but I'm really glad I did. I was feeling down Saturday and behold she asked if I wanted to go out with her. Nothing fancy, just ran some errands with her after a nice lunch, then went out for ice cream. It was the most fun I'd had all week, and I'm less insane for it. I don't know if she gets how happy she makes me, and how sad I'll be if I leave Chicago.

So for now I'm just trying hard to keep it together. I work tomorrow even though it's my usual day off to make up for C2E2 next weekend. I don't feel like I've had any rest in the past week, so I'm going to keep trucking on through and smiling until something else happens. Thanks for sticking with me here on my 50th post on my blog. I hope I haven't bored you.